Too much time on my hands and not enough to do! Don’t we all wish that were the case? It has felt like it this week as I’m trying to prepare myself for a difficult next few months trying to figure a lot of things out.

Is timing everything? Sometimes it seems that way. In fact, I’d love to think of a situation where timing isn’t the main factor…

Sometimes you have to sacrifice a lot of your life in order to get something you really want. Sometimes you have to learn a difficult lesson of this sacrifice. I hope my sacrifices aren’t made in vain. I also hope that I come out on top before I am not able to make it up.

Life isn’t fair. It never has been. But sometimes it gives you a big slap in the face and that makes you cry.

I saw Shrek 2 and The Notebook today. Two great movies for different reasons!

I hate being jealous and one who generally makes a lot of assumptions. It ruins having a good time and usually pushes people away.

I should read more poetry.

I should practice the piano more often. I miss playing like I used to but I lack motivation most of the time.

I can’t believe it’s already the middle of August. In fact, I can’t believe that I’m in California still. It’s been so amazing being here and I’ve been so happy to try this out. But I also have had bouts of unhappiness and despression trying to deal with the financial situation. As difficult as that burden is to bear, I know I have to keep going. When I moved here in March, I would have NEVER guessed that I’d still be doing what I’m doing now.

It’s wonderful when you’re able to catch up with old friends. I should do it more often! You have the best conversations with people you care about sometimes after some time apart.

Am I really flighty?

I miss eating some good Tex-Mex. Gringos!! I’d love to franchise that restaurant over here. It would be a HUGE money maker. Investors, anyone?!

Even though I have moved here, most of my stuff is still back in Texas. So, it really doesn’t feel like I’m here for good. I hate that feeling, not knowing what’s gonna happen next and knowing that it might change at any minute! But, it’s also a rush, an excitement, to know that I’ll be experiencing so many new things with new people at new places. I just wish I didn’t have conflicting feelings about so many things!